Anna Nicole Smith "I hate for men to want sex all the time."

One small diary from 1994 describe her relationship with Marshall, who was ill and died in 1995.

“He’s so very weak and fragile. When I touch him I’m afraid he might break,� she wrote in the undated entry.

“If Jesus decides to take him I don’t know what I’ll do. I love him so much it hurts me to sit and watch him when he’s hurting. I just want to hold him, touch him let him no how much I care.�

In her first diary, Smith reveals her battle with food.

“I’ve been really stressed out lately and depressed and I can’t quit eating. I feel like a pig,� the former Playboy Playmate, who died on February 8 in a Florida hotel from a drug overdose, wrote in an entry dated August 16, 1992.

The starlet’s journals are among several pieces of Smith memorabilia going up for public auction in a few weeks by Heritage Auction Galleries of Dallas.

The first diary is a purple and green Hallmark hardback book that includes a handwritten message on the inside cover: “This diary belongs to Vickie Smith. Do Not Read!�

Smith, whose real name is Vickie Lynn Smith, noted the beginning of her relationship with Paul Marciano, chief executive of Guess, where she eventually replaced Claudia Schiffer in the company's jeans advertisements.

“O my Gosh!! Paul Marsiano called today to see if I got his books also I’m gonna go to San Antonio to do photo shoot,� she wrote on June 23, 1992. “I’m so excited!! I can’t believe this. This could be it.� The entry ends with five hand-drawn smiley faces.

Two days later she details a trip to a Nieman Marcus store where she bought $3,000 (€2,200) worth of clothing.

“I’m so happy they look great,� she wrote. “I hope it empresses [sic] Paul Marsiano… I’m starving!! I’ve been starving myself.�

By August, Smith revealed a disdain for eating and sex, and growing frustration with Marshall, who was 63 years older than Smith. The two married in 1994.

“I’ve been really stressed out lately and depressed and I can’t quit eating. I feel like a pig. Howard has been buying me some jewellery but he calls me 15 or 20 times a day – it drives me crazy. I love him but he aggravates me sometimes,� she wrote. “I don’t know what to do about Paul, he’s (a) strange guy. I hate for men to want sex all the time.�

On June 13, 1992, she wrote that she was hung over and stayed home to watch a movie, adding that she “Took a Zandrex!�

The auction house obtained the journals from an anonymous German businessman who purchased them and other items on eBay for more than $500,000 several weeks ago.

Meanwhile, the New York Post is reporting that the Playmate may have taken 600 pills in the last 5 weeks of her life.

Documents from the Broward County medical examiner show that LA shrink Dr. Khristine Eroshevich wrote prescriptions for all 11 medications found in her Florida hotel room after her death. Also, most of the prescriptions were written out to Anna’s lawyer and companion Howard K. Stern.

According to TMZ, the California Medical Board is conducting a formal investigation on Dr. Eroshevich, who was Anna's psychiatrist.

"I can only tell you that she (Eroshevich) is being investigated in connection with the Anna Nicole Smith matter," board spokeswoman Candis Cohen said.

Smith was found unresponsive in her Hollywood, Florida, hotel room on February 8 and pronounced dead within hours at a nearby hospital. Nine drugs were found in her system, including toxic levels of chloral hydrate.

The Broward County Medical Examiner's office on Thursday released a list of medications found in the room and prescribed by Eroshevich between Jan 2 and March 6. They include chloral hydrate, anti-anxiety drugs, muscle relaxants, anti-seizure drugs, diuretics and antibiotics.

By Fabien Montique posted time [12:06 PM]